Today has been, challenging. I didn't sleep well because of a persistent tickly cough attacking me and it is SO hard to get myself going in the mornings. I may have to start taking vitamins at night and eating a snack before bed to get me going. I'm going to have to do something for next week when Leiah starts back to school.
I had a big list of things to do- mop, vacuum, laundry, cultures etc. So far I've mopped, washed a load of clothes, bathed the girls and cleaned up my room. We also had a picnic lunch outside since it's so warm and breezy and we all needed some sunshine and fresh air. I find myself getting more dissatisfied with the current house- it seems so small to me now. I can hardly wait for some more room to stretch out in. Maybe it's because we went from a North Pole look to a bare wall look. Everything seems quite ugly and plain to me now. Time to do some decorating I guess, at the other house.
Ok, about gifts of the Spirit. I don't have my Bible out right now, but I'll just expound on my knowledge and experience.
My whole entire life I have been going to 'full gospel' churches. Non-denominational, praise singing (as in no hymns) people dancing up front, people raising their hands to the Lord, shouting and being slain in the Spirit. Now, even as a child I was able to discern the spirits, and I could sense what was 'real' and what might be a little over the top. (I was saved at a very young age)
When I accepted Jesus as my Savior, the Holy Spirit made His abode in me. However, I think being filled or baptized in the Spirit is a bit different. By looking in Acts, you can see that the Apostles believed and were saved, but Jesus said to wait for the Comforter and I believe He also meant, wait for the power. Immediately when the Holy Spirit came as fire on them and they all began speaking in other tongues, Peter was able to preach a message to thousands. Before this, he always stuck his foot in his mouth. I have read a book about Smith Wigglesworth, an amazing British evangelist, that literally could not speak publicly. After he was filled with the Holy Spirit, he was able to speak to 20,000 people.
It's more of a matter of learning to yield to the Holy Spirit and allow Him to speak through you. Speaking in tongues is basically God praying through you- you are praying as the Spirit gives utterance, which is ultimately what God would pray, through you. A direct line of communication. Many times I just don't know how to pray in a particular situation, well, that's where speaking tongues comes in. He knows what to pray even if I don't, and can use my tongue to pray it, because the prayer of faith gets things done on the earth.
I have gotten Words from the Lord and even a prophesy once; but I've never really experienced the 'Holy Ghost Fire' of baptism with the evidence of speaking in tongues. Speaking in other tongues is the evidence to you and others that He really is in you. I just haven't fully yielded myself over- why? Because I don't want to be loud and get in front of people :) I love it when someone speaks out in tongues and another interprets it. It's just wonderful- because it is straight from the mouth of the Lord. I've seen the mellowest quietest people get up and run around the church and do a jig; I've seen old men jump and shout and laugh and laugh. It's simply the joy of the Lord. It's nothing to be afraid of, it's just the whole control thing.
I'm getting there though...I see the need and value for this to work in our lives. I am ready to move up to higher grounds so to speak. I hope that what I've said makes sense. If not, guess I'll need to do some studying on it.
I will mention this. I have been in some church services when it was VERY obvious it was not real. I got red flags all over my insides and felt very uneasy flight or fright feelings. He makes it very clear that you must leave now! You just know- He lets you know. And, it wasn't my church, just some I may have visited over the years.