Well, I went to the doctor today.
It appears that he is 90% sure we're having a...
The baby is still quite small and he wasn't able to see a lot of the vital organs, so at my next visit I'll have another one to check all of that, and the baby will a lot bigger. We'll know more positively then :) But he was pretty sure. We have the video of it so we'll look at it very closely.
I was able to talk to him in depth about vbac. He has seen uterine ruptures in his residency, which I'm guessing is at least 10 years ago if not more. He is very nice about it and strong suggests I do the c-section, because you just never know what the scar looks like etc.
He even explained to me that the uterus tissue is very fibrous, and once a cut is made through the fibers, they don't knit back together like other muscles. Many times the uterus will stretch so much that there is only a thin membrane where the scar is and you can 'see' the baby through it. That is without labor.
However, if I went into labor and it progressed really fast and I came into the hospital at 9cm, then yes, I can have it naturally :) Soooo, I still don't know what to do. He knows how I feel about it, why I would attempt a vbac, but thinks a midwife has no business doing a homebirth with a vbac.
I haven't had a chance to talk with my husband about it in depth, but we'll discuss it more. Honestly, if I can gear myself up knowing a c-section is happening, I'll be fine. I just don't want to miss an opportunity that I might never get again.
Company is coming, gotta run.