Yesterday was a busy day as well. The morning didn't go well at all. Everyone, including me, was grumpy. I do really try to not let my emotions rule me, but when no one cooperates and there's just a general fussiness, it's hard to remain upbeat.
Which brings me to a question. How do I keep a right heart towards my children? I'll read some inspiring things, feel convicted and do good for awhile, then we'll have an off day, and I feel like a drill sergeant- yelling, with no love, and a sort of hardness in my heart. Why am I so bad at training my children?? This is the dilemma- I read everything about how to correct and train, but what do you do when they kids declare mutiny?! How do I train them all at the same time without getting out of control? And does 'regular' child training work with special children too?
I have been praying a lot and asking for wisdom, but I feel stuck and stumped sometimes. Does anyone else's children just look for things to tear up or get into? When they have two rooms of toys (not full of toys, but different kinds) a kitchen cupboard of toys, a playpen of toys and many books? I let them play at the sink some, help me with cooking and cleaning and they have responsibilities, but it doesn't seem to be enough.
I know they won't be perfect at all, but I get so tired of it!! I have a vision of what I want our days and life to be like and we are far from it. Wait, I just figured out the major problem- Alexa wants to be the boss-of everyone! She is strong willed, but she's not the classic strong willed child, she does yield at times. But, she has this desire for power and control, she wants to run the show.
Now, how do you change that besides a miracle?
Anyways, today I went to MOPS, and for those who may not know MOPS stands for Mothers of Preschoolers. I went religiously when Leiah and Alexa were babies, then after we moved I didn't attend as much. I wasn't sure about going this year, and I didn't go but a few times. I prayed about it, and felt led to go today. The girls did very well and had lots of fun and do actually have Bible lessons. I am going to pray about possibly being on the leadership team for next year- I have been going for almost 5 years now and been on the 'receiving end' for a long time.
The downfall is that my middle child always acts terribly when we get done with MOPS- either from being tired or from picking up bad habits from the other children. They are all laying down for naps right now.
I did finally get some sewing done and most of Leiah's dress is done-just need to hem and add trim/buttons.
What else, well I've figured out that the best routine for me is no routine. Sounds strange, but making a to do list works better than anything else. In our household, things rarely go like they're 'supposed' to, so I end up moving things around a lot. The only thing I do routinely is grocery shopping on Tuesday night. I am about to start taking Leiah to speech again, so life will change a lot more, and I will most likely HAVE to make a routine to stick to.